Saturday, February 12, 2011

The Magic of Love

Theirs something magical about true Love. Itz like being dipped in honey dew drops of infinite oceans & mountains flowing through my veins. Expectations dissolve & all reason crumbles at loves door. To see, feel & inperience love behind all disguises & personality izms haz been so rewarding. When I forget I feel so seperate & lonely, but when I turn my attention to the truth I am belt releasing full of the emptiness of love awareness. All iz Good~~~

Friday, February 4, 2011

Living life just becuz

I have worked every since I waz a little kid with my father and learned many valuable lessons in life. And now I'm on a grander path of unfoldment by following and sharing my blizz. Sometimes my mind tries to put thiz new unfolding into a box so I can "make a living". Cuz frankly sometimes riding in the unknown zone iz scary, but the more I walk by faith and not by sight and surrender to thiz mysterious life everything unfolds perfectly & naturally. By listening to my intuition I am guided day by day, moment by moment to grow, expand & realize all the good I seek iz right here right now. I no longer believe you haveto work hard for a living, at least not for me. Actually itz the other way around, the less hard I work & the more fun, joy, peace & love I release & allow the better life gets. Itz like the universe iz running towards me with open arms shouting at the top of her lungs WELCOME TO YOUR INFINITE SELF~~~

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Buying a Goat

Az I waz coming out of Whole Foods today, a bright, intense woman started telling me about the organization Save the Children I believe. When she started to tell me of the plight of the children my insides jumped. I told her hearing of their suffering depresses me. I asked for change for $20 & she said "if you gave the whole $20 thiz will match another person who gave $20 and we can buy a goat for a woman in the village. I laughed now that's the way I like to give with joy & hopefullness~~~~~~

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Life

When I think of it, Life iz easy. Easy when I follow my blizz, easy when I share my blizz, easy when I speak my truth, easy when I breathe in & out love, easy when I take off the mask & be my authentic self, easy when I accept, appreciate, celebrate life in all its infinite expressions, easy when I do what comes natural & stop fighting against what does not, easy when I let go and let Goddess. Yes Life iz Wonderful~

Friday, January 28, 2011


  • My mission iz to be a vortex of love, spirling in ever undulations patterns of soft meadows, warm sun light rays, oceans of liquid love flowing, flowing, flowing to deep dark, light colors of thiz rainbow life~~~~~~~~
    Joy iz in the full hearted releasing, full hearted giving and the full hearted receiving of life. Let yourself give without censoring yourself. Sometimes the ego says, I can't tell that person how gorgeous, loving, kind & wildly creative they are what will they think? Conversely open yourself for someone to tell U how gorgeous, loving, kind & wildly creative U are. U are Loved~~~

Monday, January 24, 2011

What a Life

The good thing about getting older iz that theirs a comfort in my soul that transcends my ever changing, ever fluctuating but always unpredictable predictable life. When I waz younger the should's, could's and would's led my life. I did or did not do things based upon whether it fit into my self described role or position I had in my mind. Spiritual people don't get angry, cry or feel their feelings deeply and most of all they don't get a choice or preference. They always see the bigger picture so they have to give and be or service to other "less" unfortunate whether they want to or not. Boy did I have a big ego, to think that I could control others by me being a unauthentic version of myself. My heart waz in the right place though and that led me further to inperiece and experience life's ups and downs so that I might unlearn some nasty habits & outdated thought forms that I picked up along my human incarnation. In my late thirties that's when a big shift started happening. I started saying no or yes more when I really meant it not because it waz the "right" thing to do. I knew I had come a long way when a co-worker who would ask me for favors alot because she the former me would override my inner voice said, to me one day, "Nejah your not az nice az you used to be". A standing ovation of bravos went off in my mind like I had just gave the most heart wrenching performance of my life. For I knew for her"nice" and "fool" were exchangeable. Of course I'm still learning & unlearning more and more. Their a lightness of being that's walking with me everyday not to be crowded under a overstuffed to do list. Theirs space to listen to the birds, play with my cats, do good or bad art, collage with my wise seniors and funny kids, play tennis, take hikes, shop, take classes of interest, write, cry, laugh and most importantly align my thoughts, words and actions with Source/inner SELF. Getting older iz a blessing & theirs no denying it my Life iz getting better and better~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Monday, January 17, 2011

Tennis my Teacher

Today I started my exercise program, getting up & out by 7:00am to go to my local tennis court and do running drills. I placed orange cones in the front, middle and back of the court. I ran to the closest one ran backwards and then ran to the next one further out and repeated until I had completed thiz drill. I stretched somemore between the drills and then ran along the baseline flipping my feet left to right several times. I stretched some more and did a series of stepping on the bench and coming back down. Boy waz that a good one. After 45 minutes I decided to call it a day. It iz better to do a little a lot than alot very little. Theirs something amazing about thiz body that adapts, forgives, communicates and thrives with effortless ease. Even pain iz my friend for it gives me information to pay attention 2. However, health & wholeness iz where my attention primarily iz. I have another tournament in April that I am joyously focused on. I can't really explain why I injoy the whole process of tennis from hitting, doing drills, socializing with others, picking out my outfits but most of all feeling the pulsating energy run through me like a bolt of joylightening. And to see my body change little by little before my eyes iz exciting. I'm not trying to be a size 0 or a size 9 for that matter : } But sensing the aliviness, vitality and feeling myself getting stronger, faster, my flexible and more alive now that's something that can't be bought. I use to think I wazn't disciplined but now I know that's not true. If it rings true, if it feel God good, if I'm in alignment with what I'm doing/being I am inspired to action without fuss. Tennis haz become my master teacher for I am breaking through my self imposed limitations and if I can do it here I can do it in other areas of my life. Life iz God Good~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~